Silver stars light up the black sky

...the wind whistles playful tunes in my ear and brings me comfort as the breeze dances along my body.

Right now I'm sitting on the patio and the weather is amazing...it puts me in the mood to write...


If I'm dreaming about him don't wake me up.
I'm happiest when I'm with him.
So let me sleep and be happy.

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Maybe this was suppose to happen...
I don't know, but from the first moment I looked into your eyes,
When I first felt your touch...I knew.
And when the day came-
You held my hand
And I looked into your eyes -
I fell in love.

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The aching of ones heart,
Just longing for a kiss.
Tender touches, Soft whispers, Bodies crying out wanting to become one.
But for an instant the world may stop-
For I have now kissed the lips of love-
My breath was taken away-
My heart was given to you.


P.S. I did not write these poems for YOU or anyone I have ever met. I write what I know I would want to read and what I would want to feel.

101 Things To Do Before You Die

I bought this book bc I wanted to see how many things I could complete in my lifetime...of course I have way more than 101 things that I want to do, but this was just something to get me going.

COMPLETED:

#9: Learn That Instrument

-Guitar baby!!

#10: Leave Your Mark in Graffiti

-Last September Raul and I made a stencil of Big Boy...one night I was drunk with no shoes on and saw a white wall driving home and made him pull over so I could spray paint it there.

#17: Own a Pointless Collection

-I collect coins..and I have a few rare ones!

#18: Study the Kama Sutra and Put Theory into Practice

-Well you know...lol

#22: Go up in a Hot Air Balloon

-I've done this twice...once in 2004 and again in 2007.

#26: Bungee Jump

-Did this a few years back...as you can tell I'm not afraid of heights.

#28: Sky Dive

-Did this today and it was sooooo amazing :)

#30 Stay in the Best Suite in a Five Star Hotel

-Paris!!! Super sweet stay :D

#40: Get a Free Upgrade on a Plane

-I got this because there were a few people on our plane so they just let me go into first class.

#41: Be Friends With Your Ex

-Danny who I was with for 4 years is one of my best friends...Omar, I was with 2 years, talk every few weeks...and Raul...well there's no hope :P we'll see though

#50: Write Your Name Over A Star on the Walk of Fame

-I did this for my birthday trip to California this year...kinda scary bc I was afraid of getting caught, but it all worked out.

#51: Leave a Job You Hate

-My last job was a drag...I hated it!

#54: Make at Least One Huge Purchase You Can't Afford

-How many times have I done this?? Movado watch, tiffanys, dolce & gabbana...need I say more.

#58: Live in the Place You Love

-I moved to Orange County, California...loved every moment and miss it everyday.

#75: Get a Tattoo

-I have 5

#98: Go on a Demonstration

-Peace in the Middle East...WORLD PEACE

That's all I've done so far...I have so much more to do.

Next on the list...MILK A COW!

"I can never look serious, because I can't stop smiling!"

I said that last night...and I when I did, I realized that after all the crap I have been through recently, I was happy. No, I can never erase the memory and I wouldn't want to. I had the crappiest childhood...abuse, living in shelters, scared for my life, but no matter what I always remembered all the little things that made me happy and I smiled. People that know me know that I appreciate EVERYTHING! I really wish I could help everyone. It's so hard to walk away from somebody that needs help...but when it comes to me needing help, the only person I depend on is myself... I can always count on me, because in the end it's just ME. This last incident was different though...I actually asked for help. Help for encouragement, for understanding, for a shoulder to cry on...for a friend. And I don't think if it wasn't for them I would be lost and sad. Everything happens for a reason and this was a BIG wake up call. You live, You learn, but always remember to love yourself in the end.

"Every mistake I made, I couldn't of made without you..." but thank you, bc I wouldn't be who I am today.

Running Shumming

30 minutes of cardio at least 3 times a week.
That's what they tell us right?
I've been running/walking these past few weeks and I HATE IT!
I really want to say EFF U RUNNING!!!!
So what else can I do to get my cardio in...Salsa Lessions!!!
Sexy latin moves sound way better than...uh...track, lol.
Let's see if they can turn this no hip to a hip moving superstar!

Hopefully starting next week :)

BRENHAM, TX---- Little Town, Lots of Love

Memorial Day Weekend...WHOO HOOO!!!

Pool parties, BBQ, beer, BRENHAM?

Yes my friends my 3 day weekend was spent in the small town of Brenham AKA BLUE BELL TOWN. Famous for being the hometown of Blue Bell Ice Cream, which i LOVE!

I had visited once before, but this time I got to see the city for all it's worth.

Overall, it's what you expect from a little town in Texas...Walmart is the spot, also a life saver for those who come unprepared like me...people are nice...lots of grass....lots of cows... & lots of ice cream!

P.S. We did manager to squeeze in the pool party, bbq, and beer!

DON'T MESS WITH TEXAS!

the world moves...and i'm standing still.

I'm sorry.
I'll do everything right next time, just for you.
Who knows what could have been...but right now I rather see your smile for a second then to go on with this pain.
I'll think of you when I feel the sun on my skin, when I dance in the rain, when I look at the blue sky...and think where you've gone and if you'll still love me.

I don't want to but i have to...

life sucks right now.

Nothing Compares 2 U

really...nothing at all.
I've looked and looked, but come back with nothing.
These rainy days make me think of you more.
Summer is coming as it did last year, but last year I had you, and this year I'm alone.

I know you don't know me, but....

Guy sees girl. Guy thinks girl is cute. Guy comes up to the girl and says, "I know you don't know me, but I think you're cute."

Thank you for the compliment.

Today I had this experience...good thing i found out he was a douche before anything happened thanks to friend "A"...now we have a little prank going on :D

I guess knowing what it feels like to have a broken heart, I feel bad for those who have gone through the lies and the cheating too. Never again I say, and never EVER will i help someone cheat.

Douche Bag free is the way to be!

I Love WHO?

I was riding with my friend yesterday, it was rainy, it was cold, and she was talking to her boyfriend on speaker phone. Before ending the conversation he said, "I love you." It was so simple and so natural. When I heard that I thought, Jeez, I haven't heard that saying in a lonnnggg time! It kinda made me feel a little sad. I never really even thought about how much those words could mean to someone. Recently I've been trying to score dates, not to hear I LOVE YOU. I can't believe it, did I forget about love?

I love lots of people, but none in a romantic, I want to spend the rest of my life with you type of way. And who loved me? I know my family, my friends, but that's it. Then it came to me...what's most important...I said it out loud,"I LOVE YOU RACENE!"....then I said back.."I love you too."